Saturday 15 November 2008

Thank you for stopping by but I'm currently out of the office at the moment. If you have an urgent request please feel free to leave me a message and I shall respond upon my return. In the meantime normal service shall resume once I've found my sobriety and sense of humour ;o)

Thursday 6 November 2008

Making the most of life

I’ve been a single mum for seven years today. It’s seven years today that the boys’ dad decided to leave and go and live with someone else. I’m over it, but I’ll never be allowed to forget it as the date just happens to also be my son’s birthday.

When my boys were younger I was so preoccupied with the practical stuff, the logistics, earning the dough and paying the bills that I forgot to enjoy them whilst they were little. Now I'm mature enough to see the beauty in their funny ways, and their innocence, I really enjoy their company. Their dad and I had a happy marriage, although it ended sadly with him leaving me for a much younger girl whilst I was 6 months preggers with Maxi…not a good time but hey ho, it’s made me the girl I am today, ie incurably independent, and not afraid to graft. I’ve come to believe that life’s a series of tests, which is exhausting but finally gives a purpose and I only hope that my kids, or any kids, learn from my mistakes/life. What is your life worth if nobody learns from it? This thinking keeps me wrapped up in yester-year, my melancholy, romantic view on human nature…we’re too intellectual an animal to let the past pass us by without reaping some reward. I see the simplest plant growing, I hear the clearest voice of a bird in my garden, I remember a wave dying on a beach and I truly believe that they’re put there to teach me something, a sign from somewhere to keep us grounded to the life that we’re put here for. I get to the age of 35 (ahem) and finally feel that I get it, I finally see what all the fuss it about; when we’re young we don’t see it but it’s when we lose/gain people that we see the life that’s most important. I'm really worried that not many people share that with me, I almost feel like I'm dying cos there’s so much I haven’t seen/done and that I'm running out of time.

On Monday I attended a wonderfully sincere funeral for a lovely lady who was taken too soon. Kind of put me in my place and made me realise what's important.


Wednesday 5 November 2008

Nice

I love being a mum, you get to scrub sour puke out of the carpet and everything...

Sunday 2 November 2008

Some photos

Today I've been looking at photos that we took over the summer, here are some of my favs from camping in August:
Max took this one of me and him

In the, er 6 inch rapids...(Bexhill)


Off roading at Seven Sisters country


Boys chillin in old fashioned seaside fashion



Eating breakfast in the sunshieeenne



MM and me

RIP Jeff Buckley